you need to listen to silver morning by brian eno.

andy boyer sent me that song one morning … or evening …. or, well whenever we got to talking about what sort of music we like to wake up to. i’ve been running to this song a lot – helps me pace my breathing.

maybe it’s the fact that today is my birthday or maybe because it’s cloudy out but whatever the cause is I’m feeling the “sensation.”

you see – i love rainy days. when it’s overcast, cloudy, windy, gusty, the smell of the earth changes, the song in the sky hits a different key. i told my father earlier this morning (when he woke me up singing “happy birthday” [love my father!]) that i was waiting for a sign.

and before you begin to speculate about my sanity, or even worse – my character, let me say that yes, i do believe in signs. i even believe in you.

now then, i’m waiting for a sign to point me in the right career direction. should i move to NYC with no job or place to live lined up. take the plunge? i have a sort of safety net if i choose that path. or should i stay in cleveland/ detroit? there are fewer jobs options but hey – it’s green out here, and populated by family and friends.

i know now that i want to/ will go into the peace corps and, will a good gust in my sails, eventually into carnegie mellon. but in the interim …

… what’s holding me back? other than green, family and friends, and a lower cost of living … ha – the prospect of a relationship.

… like i said. i’m just waiting for a sign.

waiting proactively of course. i’m still looking for a gig and a place to live. AND today, i’m going rock climbing! for my very first time. happy birthday~